5 October 2014

I'm quitting youtube? an explanation


Hi everyone, I feel like I just need to explain things that are going to be happening and what I am doing, to you all and to just get it all planed out in my head so the things I have planned can run smoothly.

I started blogging when I was 15 years old, I'm now 20 and a lot has changed in that time, my style, my interests, what I want to do with my life and how I view the world. I would say I haven't blogged consistently since summer 2012. I think this is because of the changes I have gone through and whenever I blogged, it didn't feel like me.

I started a youtube channel last year and I didn't plan on doing make up tutorials, hair styles, fashion videos and hauls because I am not good at make up, my hair always looks the same, I am not at all fashionable and I don't go shopping for loads of things regularly. So I thought I would make different videos, I'm not even sure what kind of videos I was thinking of making at the time I just wanted to make a youtube channel to go along with my blog.

So because I didn't know what I wanted to do I just kind of went along with the flow and made those kinds of videos because I thought thats what people would most like to watch even though I didn't really feel comfortable making them. I am a huge perfectionist so when I made these types of videos I felt so uncomfortable as I felt they were really rubbish. Over the past few months I did think about stopping making videos all together, when ever I post a new video I always feel really anxious and embarrassed by them and that definitely isn't how I feel when I post a blog post. Blogging feels a lot more natural to me and I love writing, I feel like I can explain myself a lot more than when I speak out loud.

Making videos doesn't make me feel as good as blogging does, I can blog on the go, when I am out and about I can type up blog posts on my phone, currently since I am so busy with college this is much easier and less stressful for me. I'm not saying I am completely quitting youtube forever, just don't expect constant videos from me at the moment. Since it is a big process creating videos, you have to film them, edit them (which can take me days) and upload them, I feel like if I concentrated on youtube my college work would suffer dramatically. Last year I got a distinction star for my work and I want to keep up that high level of achievement this year, I absolutely love my course and I don't want to ruin all my hard work concentrating on something that doesn't make me feel good.

I feel like I need to concentrate on one or the other and I've tried YouTube and it's just not for me, I'm going to just post when ever I feel like it, those videos will mainly be in a vlog style. I'm sorry for those who liked my videos but I'm pretty sure I can make what ever video you wanted to see into a blog post.

Im wanting to get back into blogging and lean more towards the lifestyle side of blogging, and talk about my bunnies and hamster because these are the things I care about more than make up etc. Obviously I will still include beauty posts because I do still like that side of it, there will just be more of a variety of posts.

I hope this has all made sense! I just felt the need to let you all know how I'm feeling and I generally think I will feel better for letting this all out! Thank you for your support and encouragement it is much appreciated!
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2 comments

  1. I never really got into the youtube side of blogging. From doing my own videos to watching others I just couldn't get into it. I tend to read blogs on the go (public transport and at work) so watching videos in public really wasn't the best. I'd much rather read about something and see gorgeous photos alongside :)
    I'm loving the idea of branching out into lifestyle posts. A lot of bloggers are going this way too so it's really good to see :) I can't wait to see some future posts :)

    Tamsyn-Elizabeth
    Peach Pow XO

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  2. i absolutely love your videos and your blog equally, but like you i dont think i could get into the youtube side of things i have quite a shy personality, and would constantly be feeling anxious and embarrassed about what people may think of me, your rabbits are adorable (i also have a rabbit) and completely respect your decision you are so inspirational and made me help to decide what i want to do in the future !! x
    Juliet
    juleshbeauty.blogspot.com

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